Marriage

I get married tomorrow at seven o'clock. I'm sitting here going over my vows. And i'm so excited. I'm a little nervous. A titch bit scared.

I'm excited to have Trey forever in my life.
I'm nervous that I might cry too much, or miss a moment I will want to cherish.
And i'm scared that I won't be the best I can be for him...

This man i've found, is the best one anyone could know. He gets it. He sees life through blessed eyes. He is strong both in body and mind. He is the type of man who could walk through flames to get to something he wanted or needed on the other side.

I'm excited to watch him be a dad.
I'm nervous our kids will like him more than me :)
I'm scared that I'll lose it with him sometimes... that i'll yell too much

T doesn't yell, he gets quiet, and he gets sad. This amazing person I've found is going to give me the most amazing life. Want to know why?

He tells me so. And he winks at me...I love it when he winks cuz he's good at it.

I'm excited to hear his laugh until i'm too old to hear anymore.
I'm nervous that might come too young. 60 years seems too short...
I'm scared I might die first, and he'd be alone.

You know, i've been waiting for Trey forever. I always knew I wanted him. I can't believe I found him so soon, and so easy!

I'm excited to be his wife.
I'm nervous to try a new signature. A cursive J seems hard.
I'm scared that since I found him so easy....maybe it was too easy.

I get married tomorrow so when I was getting a pedicure today I was talking to the girl doing my nails. Her husband recently passed away so now she is a widow with a two year old daughter. When I looked in this girls eyes I could see so much pain there. I wondered how she could get into bed, or wake up knowing he wouldn't come home.

I'm excited T will come home...
I'm nervous to try and be cooking now. I never thought of it before.
I'm scared

I'm excited to have sex with him forever
I'm excited to have his babies
I'm excited to boss him around
I'm excited to know his deepest feelings
I'm excited for him to know mine
I'm nervous for the hard times
and I'm scared for the end


T, i love you like no one can. I want to protect you, and hold you on bad days. I want you to hold me and I want to laugh alot. You are my everything.
Married :)

Swine Flu Hype

I got home Sunday evening from my bachelorette party in Vegas where I stayed up really late, had a few drinks, didn't sleep very well. I had just gotten my wisdom teeth out a little over a week before so I already wasn't one hundred percent. I get home, monday i'm exhausted, not sleeping really caught up to me. Tuesday I am up and moving around but i'm feeling pretty sick. That night I had a fever through the roof... and since tuesday I have basically been laying on my couch thinking I was going to die.

To be accurate, thursday I went to the doctor because I had started to violently throw up. I could barely walk and I knew something was seriously wrong. By wednesday I had started to feel this ache in my back which I think started on tuesday but I must not have noticed because it started as a bit of a muscle ache, I thought that that wasn't uncommon since I work out it might have been some stiffness. Well when I went to the doctor I was thinking either swine flu or kidney infection either one sucks because I get married next thursday and I have a lot of stuff to do between now and then.

Turns out it was a kidney infection.

The remarkable thing about this whole story is that mustiple times through my fever haze I can remmebr being so scared that it was swine flu and I might die, that I think it made my symptoms worse. I can remember feeling my heart beat speed up and my face get hotter. Almost like my brain was like, ok we thought it was this one thing but she is saying it's another so... let's freak out!

The swine flu hype makes me sick...literally.
When I went into the clinic where my doctor is they have a sign asking that if you have a fever, cough, runny nose etc.. to where a little mask like the doctors wear. So I did and I just remember thinking....

Now I look like everyone in the pictures. I have swine flu, and I'm going to die... www.cdc.gov/H1N1flu/qa.htm

SWINE FLU SCARE HAS REACHED NEW HIGH

Orem, Ut - Last week a UVU student was asked to not attend class once it was known that she had been exposed to the swine flu and a class member now has symptons.

The professor of the class gave a personal phone call Monday night asking the student to please stay home for the night instead of attending class. A class member is now sick with the swine flu and the prevention of the illness spreading is first and foremost on teachers minds at the university.

"When my son showed symptoms I took him to the doctor to get diagnosed, the doctor said to take him home, they have had so many outbreaks, the clinic didn't even test him."
Said Lisa Packard, the student who received the call. Packard had missed class due to her childs illness but never became sick with the flu herself.

Faculty was sent a mass email at the university asking to relay the message to students. If you are sick, or have come in contact, notify your teacher and please stay home.

"I was kind of freaked out by the outbreak in the valley and I went to get the flu shot but the line was so long I left after an hour" said UVU student Nate Parkins.

The syomptoms for swine flu have been fever, loss of appetite, and stomach cramping.
"The swine flu has evolved so that the flu shot doesn't even treat it now" claims Farrah Dunn, a Professor at UVU. Dunn has had students in her classes miss two weeks at a time with the flu. A few of her students started getting sick before the email to faculty went out.

"It felt weird to be asked to not attend class" said Packard about the phone call from her professor. When she recieved the call Packard explained the situation, she never got sick and her son was technically never diagnosed. Packard claims her Professor was very kind about the situation. The main thing on his mind is prevention of spreading the sickness as midterm exams start in two weeks.

When class resumes Monday the 19th after fall break she is expected back in class as usual.

Strip Tazed...?

I have often thought that I would do certain things to get myself out of a ticket. Stripping for a police officer in front of my children probably wouldn't be one of them. Julia E. Laack, 36, of Sheboygan Wis. was convicted of a felony for battering a peace officer. She stole beef jerky and a lighter from a convenience store and when the cops went to her house to questions her she started yelling at her three children, refused o come to the door, and stripped naked so that when they entered they wouldn't be able to arrest her...
Honestly this story is too good. Please read this article.
I want to know what people in america would do to get out of a ticket, or talk the police (or try to) out of being arrested. We've seen cops, we've seen drunken red necks trying to drive and hookers trying to convince undercover that they arne't doing what they are actually doing. SO... what would a "normal" american do to get out of these circumstances?

I would cry myself out of a ticket, justify speeding on being in labor. If I ever shoplifted, which I wouldn't, but I might say that I did it because I forgot I had it... I might do some crazy things to get out of trouble...
Check out this article and let me know, what would YOU do to get out of trouble?

http://www.theledger.com/article/20091009/APA/910092199

RANT

My last post talked about agenda setting. I've been reading up a little bit on healthcare and everything that's available to know about it, which isn't much, and if you know me you've heard me talk about how I don't feel like I have a voice at all. I'm not old enough to vote. Which is the number one issue. The number two issue is that even if I could vote, is anybody listening?

This article I read on CNN.com is talking about how the public option for healthcare may or may not be dead. President Obama has been nurturing this project of his since before he was elected, even the president has his own agenda to set. I am not sure if I care one way or another about healthcare, I'm just bothered that it feels like I don't have a choice.

I just graduated from high school, which just means I most recently learned about U.S. Government and how bills are made/passed. There have been so many bills that citizens would like to be passed, or just considered, that haven't been because they aren't important enough or... something. Whatever the reason it just adds to my opinion that even though I love my country, and even though my government is somewhat flawed, I know I'm lucky to have it the way I do... I just feel like our politicians don't give a shit, and they've never given a shit but at least our other presidents were more .... under the table about it. Which is how I prefer dirty deeds to be done.... Why is this so important? And urgent... like they are wasting no fucking time on trying to get this shit done and legitimized. It baffles me. He was barely sworn in and it feels like it was already a done deal.

Our president is either very proactive, and hardworking, doing what he thinks is best for this country...or he's crazy... either way WTF
http://www.cnn.com/2009/POLITICS/09/30/public.option/index.html

What's The Agenda?

So....I've started to read news from different sources like The Onion and I've even listened to BBC just out of curiosity. It made me start listening to the news differently when in my comm 1600 class my teacher said that everyone in the "news" industry has a reason for giving you the information that they are giving you. Whats the message? And why are they giving it to you?

So i'm looking at MSNBC right now and they've decided to cover a story on turning parking spots into a park for the day. With a photo of a dude with a laptop in a flannel shirt just chillin in a parking spot. WTF? Seriously.... What is this message? There has to be something more important to be talking about then this. http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/32916362/ns/us_news-environment/. I'm not sayng this is a bad artic;e or that the actual purpose behind the act is stupid, even though it is, but I want to know whats going on. In America.

With my government, with my rights for healthcare and with my new president. I want someone to tell me the truth without all the fluff. Even the onion or the colbert report is still so sarcastic and cynical they aren't getting the message across either. Everyone has a different agenda that they are setting the stage for. Some want comedy others wnt to cover something "green" because that's popular right now? I don't know.

Moneymakers

I read an article on newsweek that was talking about female ambition. The author of the article was showing pictures of these women and giving a breif history of their individual careers and the roles they've played in society. Some of the women being discussed were Madonna, Yoko Ono, Nancy Pelosi, Anna Wintour, and Sarah Palin.

Each of these women have been condemned for some reason or another. They don't dress right, they don't care enough or they care too little. Martha stewart was one of the eleven women discussed in the article. She talked about her imprisonment and how she believed that if she were a man her crime would have been less of a "scandal" and recognized as more of an amibitious accident.

Anna Wintour as editor of the most popular fashion magazine, has been looked at as a bitch forever because, allegedly, she is very hard to please. However it is obvious this woman has built an empire. The article mentions she has readily admitted that she is not always "cuddly" (as a woman should be?) but that she appreciates good work and expects none less from her tough managment style.

I am not really a nut for womens rights. I am a woman, and I am human and I believe I am equal to other humans. That being said it was interesting for me to read this article that was written by a woman, about successful women. I am aware of the issues associated in the business world about women in positions of power. My mother is strong willed, intelligent, and very creative in her line of work. It is very obvious to me that she is treated differently for being a woman than if a man had her job.

So it makes me wonder. Do men treat women differently? Is it the other women, sitting at home being mothers and homemakers that are treating these ambitious women differently? Or is it the business women themselves? The Katie Courics, and Martha Stewarts of the world that have set themselves apart, maybe unknowingly?

As a woman I believe that it is instinctive for me to feel "motherly" or nurtering. But i don't believe it is my only emotion. And it would definitly not be a setback in a professional situation. It would be an advantage. Are these stygmas being put on business women to dampen success in field? To make them seem less threatening? If I were Madonna, or Nany Pelosi, or Sarah Palin how would I do it? How the hell would YOU do it? Probably not as well.

Because honestly there is no expectation. If they were more masculine it would not help. If they were more feminine they wouldn't be taken seriously. So what do they do?... Prove everyone wrong by making millions yearly.... Now isn't that ironic? People can be hating all they'd like..

Check out the SCOREBOARD! 1 Business Women, 0 Ankle Biters

I say chew on that. www.newsweek.com/id/214518